My mom
My mom.... Boy do I miss her not because she's passed away but for other reasons.
My mom was my greatest support rock I've ever had the one I could always always rely on no matter what. But she was also going through problems of her own. See she was diagnosed with severe bi polar so helping me took a lot out of her but she still did it. In 2018 I moved out of the house which seemed to both affect her and me at the same time. I had to move out due to finding out information about certain things plus I just wanted to get out and be on my own. I would call her every day on my way home from school or work and she would stay on the phone with me until I got home or wherever I was going. She never rushed me to get off the phone unless she had an appointment or something she couldn't avoid. Then she divorced my dad once again but stayed living in the house and things I could tell were not working right for her. One day she left out of the blue I walked into the house looking for her and all her stuff was at the door and the room she was in was empty I had to call my dad and ask him what happened. No one alerted me to anything that was happening because they only cared about their own feelings no one thought about mine. So I called her and texted her and for a long few days I didn't get anything back. Then she started texting me again telling me she was okay but that she just had to get out. I still didn't understand how she could just leave me like that. Then eventually the messages and the calls stopped and it's now been almost 2 years since I've seen my mom.
My mom wanted me to graduate she wanted me to walk the stage yet she wasn't there to see me do so. Yes tons of others were some I didn't even expect to show up but the only person I wanted to see show up was my mother. And show up she did not. I love her so very much and I know she fell into some bad things with a bad guy but she's still my mother to love and care for.
I miss you and love you Mom forever and no matter what.
My mom was my greatest support rock I've ever had the one I could always always rely on no matter what. But she was also going through problems of her own. See she was diagnosed with severe bi polar so helping me took a lot out of her but she still did it. In 2018 I moved out of the house which seemed to both affect her and me at the same time. I had to move out due to finding out information about certain things plus I just wanted to get out and be on my own. I would call her every day on my way home from school or work and she would stay on the phone with me until I got home or wherever I was going. She never rushed me to get off the phone unless she had an appointment or something she couldn't avoid. Then she divorced my dad once again but stayed living in the house and things I could tell were not working right for her. One day she left out of the blue I walked into the house looking for her and all her stuff was at the door and the room she was in was empty I had to call my dad and ask him what happened. No one alerted me to anything that was happening because they only cared about their own feelings no one thought about mine. So I called her and texted her and for a long few days I didn't get anything back. Then she started texting me again telling me she was okay but that she just had to get out. I still didn't understand how she could just leave me like that. Then eventually the messages and the calls stopped and it's now been almost 2 years since I've seen my mom.
My mom wanted me to graduate she wanted me to walk the stage yet she wasn't there to see me do so. Yes tons of others were some I didn't even expect to show up but the only person I wanted to see show up was my mother. And show up she did not. I love her so very much and I know she fell into some bad things with a bad guy but she's still my mother to love and care for.
I miss you and love you Mom forever and no matter what.
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